๏◡๏♡ try 1ClickRepeater.com repeat youtube videos

And in an essential way, this was what he was most ashamed of: not his poor understanding of sex, not his traitorous racial tendencies, not his inability to separate himself from his parents or make his own money or behave like an autonomous creature. It was that, when he and his colleagues sat there at night, the group of them burrowed deep into their own ambitious dream-structures, all of them drawing and planning their improbable buildings, he was doing nothing. He had lost the ability to imagine anything. And so every evening, while the others created, he copied: he drew buildings he had seen on his travels, buildings other people had dreamed and constructed, buildings he had lived in or passed through. Again and again, he made what had already been made, not bothering to improve them, just mimicking them. He was twenty-eight; his imagination had deserted him; he was a copyist.
It frightened him. JB had his series. Jude had his work, Willem had his. But what if Malcolm never again created anything? He longed for the years when it was enough to simply be in his room with his hand moving over a piece of graph paper, before the years of decisions and identities, when his parents made his choices for him, and the only thing he had to concentrate on was the clean blade stroke of a line, the ruler's perfect knife edge.


Hanya Yanagihara

  Email Quote to Friends   Link to Quote   Create Short URL  Publish Text About This Quote   Share on Facebook, Twitter, and more
  See Recommended Quotes For You

Related

He felt light, lighter than ever in all his years. He had severed all relationships. It occurred to ...
JOSEPH ROTH
His habit of reading isolated him: it became such a need that after being in company for some time h...
W. SOMERSET MAUGHAM
He ran as he'd never run before, with neither hope nor despair. He ran because the world was divided...
KARL MARLANTES
He tried to remember Moon Child's eyes, but was no longer able to. He was sure of only one thing: th...
MICHAEL ENDE
As they scuffled in the grass, Adam closed his eyes and leaned his head back. He could nearly scry j...
MAGGIE STIEFVATER
Have you ever noticed that Jesus is never recorded as taking a holiday? He retired for the purposes ...
EVELYN UNDERHILL
He was so versatile and crafty with his moves. He used everything he had to his advantage. That's wh...
DAN OZIMINSKI
And not only of even mainly because of the protection it had given him - it was thanks to his own st...
MICHAEL ENDE
He took jump shots with a hand in his face. He shot the ball a lot but when he had to make them he m...
BOB HILL
Like all men with a faculty that surpasses human requirements, his father was very nervous. Then, to...
ERNEST HEMINGWAY
God was happy without humans before they were made; he would have continued happy had he simply dest...
J.I. PACKER
To the rich man, Lazarus was part of the landscape. If ever he did notice him, it never struck him t...
WILLIAM BARCLAY
He didn't say anything until he absolutely had to -- when his life was on the line.
JEFFREY HAWK
She was a creature of the deep, and there she must return, or perish. Toby understood that, but it h...
JULIET MARILLIER
We do not always remember the things that do no credit to us. We justify them, cover them in bright ...
NEIL GAIMAN
I thought he was OK, but he stopped breathing and they had to put him on a respirator. When I was ab...
CODY COLVIN
It was a cold morning, and he shivered a little; but he had been taught by his uncle that his prayer...
W. SOMERSET MAUGHAM
He was about to go home, about to return to the place where he had had a family. It was in Godric’...
J.K. ROWLING
Jason knew his life would never be the same again. British intelligence now had an ace up their slee...
MARK A. COOPER
Keith had it a little better than most kids here because he had two parents in the same household wh...
JEFF HILL
I liked everything I read about Braddock, ... I liked who he was before he was a champion, who he wa...
RUSSELL CROWE
Harry lay flat on his back, breathing hard as though he had been running. He had awoken from a vivid...
J.K. ROWLING
Nicolai, the Dark Seducer as his people called him, had been in bed, but not alone. He was never alo...
GENA SHOWALTER
Unexpected discorporation was always rare on Mars; Martian taste in such matters called for life to ...
ROBERT A. HEINLEIN
It was only one of a dozen or twenty vocations which he had taken up at various times, only to drop ...
WILLIAM HENRY HUDSON
I believe that Jesus would have given His life for just one person. Jesus emptied Himself, He humble...
HEIDI BAKER
It took Pueblo a few seconds to take in his surroundings. The first thing he realised was that he fe...
DIANNA HARDY
He remembered Tessa weeping in his arms in Paris, and thinking that he had never known the loss she ...
CASSANDRA CLARE
He was there to serve his country and to keep his family and country safe. It was what he wanted to ...
MARGARET LEVENS
He was there to serve his country and to keep his family and country safe. It was what he wanted to ...
MARGARET LEVENS
He was there to serve his country and to keep his family and country safe. It was what he wanted to ...
MARGARET LEVENS
He had the most popular diet that ever existed, ... He was not just a doctor, he was ...
CATHY NONAS
It was his home now. But it could not be his home till he had gone from it and returned to it. Now h...
G.K. CHESTERTON
He had more velocity on his fastball, his changeup was slower, and he had sharper breaking stuff, .....
TODD PRATT
Die in winter woods," roared Tarin, as if it were his most
fervent wish. He was losing it again...
SYD MCGINLEY
To his surprise he felt a moment of regret, of sadness that his quest for his mother and father woul...
J.G. BALLARD
Each leaf that brushed his face deepened his sadness and dread. Each leaf he passed he'd never pass ...
CORMAC MCCARTHY
He knew now, and the knowledge was hard, that his task had never been to undo what he had done, but ...
URSULA K. LE GUIN
He shook his head in disbelief. He would cook and take her to his place. He was about to break two o...
MARCIA WEBER MARTINS
He had a bit of an off year for us, but it was his first in the National League and his knee was bot...
CARLOS TOSCA
He had a honey hole there where he was catching some nice fish. He didn't catch a lot, but his fish ...
JIMMY WALKER
He was not thinking that the Christian law which he had wanted to follow all his life prescribed tha...
LEO TOLSTOY
Perhaps in his loneliness he had acquired the silent conviction that he was 'the last', the one, the...
WALTER M. MILLER JR.
Not only did he do that and win a national championship in the process at Texas Western, he became a...
JOSH LUCAS
When he heard his father call out for Abel and he saw his borther go forth, it made him feel like he...
JONATHAN GOLDSTEIN
Hunter woke suddenly. A noise.
It was a noise unlike anything he’d ever heard before. Close! ...
MICHAEL GRANT
Jim had spent most of his life alone. The solitary nature of his disability and the constant moving ...
BONNIE DEE
When Luke had descended into the River Styx, he would've had to focus on something important that wo...
RICK RIORDAN
He was at a point in his life where he was retired. And he had expressed this was the happiest point...
JODI OLSON
C.J. had once believed that he understood who he was, what he was about, what he was capable of. But...
ROY L. PICKERING JR.
Frodo drew the Ring out of his pocket again and looked at it. It now appeared plain and smooth, with...
J.R.R. TOLKIEN
He should in humility have asked her why it was that he was naturally a cuckold, why two women of di...
WILLIAM TREVOR
As soon as he was half-awake he slipped his knickers off. Holding them close to his face, he handled...
DEREK RAYMOND
ot everyone liked Albert. Not everyone was happy that he had become the most important person around...
MICHAEL GRANT
It had belonged to that idea of the exasperated consciousness of his victim to become a real test fo...
HENRY JAMES
The Puffer Fish: Wherein the author flaunts his vocabulary.

His father was IRA and...
HOWARD MITTELMARK
It wasn't as though he didn't have choices. He could have expanded his career, maybe further it with...
BOB FULLER
He was on his knees and had his hand up to his throat, and the blood was squirting through his finge...
JOHN HAGGERTY
He pitched great. He had some big strikeouts when he needed them. His command was better today, he h...
JAY SUTTON
Nixon had been to China. He had been to Russia doing arms negotiation. And so, he was on his way tow...
THOMAS MALLON
Horace’s pulse was racing and adrenaline was surging into his system. But he showed no sign of it....
JOHN FLANAGAN
This sense of absence had been growing ... It was wearing into him. Last night he had woken besides ...
IAN MCEWAN
Everybody clapped enthusiastically and Dr. Marx popped up from behind the podium, where he had been ...
GIDEON DEFOE
The image of the "presence," whatever it was, waiting there for him to go--this image had not yet be...
HENRY JAMES
He told police he had an argument with his girlfriend, he was in despair, ... This defendant was try...
FRED KLEIN
[Another student, Ken, the son of Korean immigrants, enrages his ambitious father when he decides to...
FRANK MCCOURT
Butch didn't live in his own place. He didn't spend his own money. He had no job, no future. He was ...
J.R. WARD
In the second half, his disposition was different at both ends. He made great decisions, he played u...
RICK CARLISLE
Before he had come to the town he had known about nothing but death: here he had learnt to live, to ...
ANNE HOLM
He had gotten separated from his boat. His friend had heard him yell for help. He proceeded toward h...
CAPT. EMMIT KANE
It felt like being shot with an arrow, and Will jerked back. His wineglass crashed to the floor and ...
CASSANDRA CLARE
And Harry remembered his first nightmarish trip into the forest, the first time he had ever encounte...
J.K. ROWLING
If he had learned anything from his parents, he learned that business was a matter of relationships.
T.J. STILES
S., a clever and truthful man, once told me the story of how he ceased to believe. On a hunting expe...
LEO TOLSTOY
Harry lay flat on his back, breathing hard as though he had been running. He had awoken from a vivid...
J.K. ROWLING
He had gotten separated from his boat. His friend had heard him yell for help. He proceeded toward h...
CAPT. EMMIT KANE
While adhering to his convictions, with which one could agree or disagree, he was not dogmatic; he w...
MIKHAIL GORBACHEV
He had learned some of the things that every man must find out for himself, and he had found out abo...
THOMAS WOLFE
He had a deep gash. His head was really swollen because of the trauma from the accident. Other than ...
SALLY BOLON
Intrusive, thoughtless people!" said K. as he turned back into the room. The supervisor may have agr...
FRANZ KAFKA
Well, he needed it. He was about to cry, and the next time I saw him he had a smile on his face, so ...
LARRY WHEELER
His foot was really bothering him tonight. He probably shouldn't have played at all. Had John Little...
GREG MCDERMOTT
While adhering to his convictions, with which one could agree or disagree, he was not dogmatic; he w...
MIKHAIL GORBACHEV
They determined that he had had his stroke while he was napping.
AMY DAVIS
She (the caller) indicated that he was wearing gloves, that he was very agitated, that he had indica...
DARRELL DEBUSK
His talent was as natural as the pattern that was made by the dust on a butterfly's wings. At one ti...
ERNEST HEMINGWAY
He was signing a lot of autographs and doing a lot of interviews. But when he finally came out of th...
KEVIN KELLY
I squeezed his hand in the ambulance and he opened his eyes and said he had a terrible headache and ...
LOU DIBELLA
And at that moment, Thibaut knew he was a murderer. He had murdered his brother that night; he had t...
C. JOYBELL C.
[Capote never taped his subjects or even took notes — he boasted that he had 94% recall, often tea...
REX REED
Stanley lived on his own for many years after his wife passed away. Stanley had a cat that was his c...
JULIE ODIL
All that he had of her was his memory, where he held every moment, every single moment that she had ...
JULIET MARILLIER
He wants to build his own big facility on the other side of the ranch. He likes the amenities, but h...
GARRETT VENEKLASEN
He believed in what he was doing. He was protecting his country, and he was doing his job because he...
MALIA FRY
He had all his pitches working and he was able to locate all of them. He was real strong early in th...
GARY MCNAMARA
Whatever setbacks he had faced in his life, he said, however daunting or dispiriting the unfolding o...
AMOR TOWLES
Miller had gone off on some affairs of his own, as he always did when the routine at Bryant’s was ...
STELLA GIBBONS
And he took his staff in his hand, and chose him five smooth stones out of the brook, and put them i...
BIBLE
What he had not learned, however, was this: to find contentment in himself and his own life
HERMANN HESSE
He had just brought back a Central Asian Shepherd dog for my parents and a ring that was a gift from...
JENNIFER WESTER

More Hanya Yanagihara

I think for a lot of people, friendship is a relationship that gets devalued once they move on to wh...
HANYA YANAGIHARA
No religion makes more use of color than Hinduism, with its blue-skinned gods and peony-lipped godde...
HANYA YANAGIHARA
I have only a few really enviable skills, but packing - condensing just the right amount of stuff in...
HANYA YANAGIHARA
But they're your parents," Malcolm said to him once a year or so. "You can't just stop talkin...
HANYA YANAGIHARA
Although both of us were raised on Oahu, in Honolulu, my mother has always had fond memories of Maui...
HANYA YANAGIHARA
But then, didn’t everyone only tell their lives – truly tell their lives – to one person?
HANYA YANAGIHARA
When he came down, he was slower, and clutching something his hand. He leapt down the last 5 feet or...
HANYA YANAGIHARA
He has a vision of his life as a sliver of soap, worn and used and smoothed into a slender, blunt-ed...
HANYA YANAGIHARA
He had never done it before, and so he had no real understanding of how slow, and sad, and difficult...
HANYA YANAGIHARA
He will be someone who is defined, first and always, by what he is missing.
HANYA YANAGIHARA
I found myself thinking that perhaps there was something inexorable about the way events unfolded, a...
HANYA YANAGIHARA
He wasn't so elderly after all, I saw: probably just a few years older than I. And yet I was never a...
HANYA YANAGIHARA
Part of adulthood is searching for the people who understand you.
HANYA YANAGIHARA
The original Grand Tour would generally begin in Belgium or the Netherlands before moving through Pa...
HANYA YANAGIHARA
Anyone who has been to India - specifically Rajasthan, the rich and kingly region in the country'...
HANYA YANAGIHARA
Friendship is one of our most treasured relationships, but it isn't codified and celebrated; it&...
HANYA YANAGIHARA
The first thing I do whenever I go to Thailand is seek out the closest restaurant or stall selling m...
HANYA YANAGIHARA
Go to any Shinto temple in Japan and you'll see it: a simple stand from which hang hundreds of w...
HANYA YANAGIHARA
Неизбежно что-то ломается, иногда это можно починить, н...
HANYA YANAGIHARA
He placed his hand on Willem's arm. 'Willem, don't cry.'

'I'm not going to,' he said. 'I ...
HANYA YANAGIHARA
We all say we want our kids to be happy, only happy, and healthy, but we don't want that. We want th...
HANYA YANAGIHARA
He sits at the table and reads novels, old favorites of his, the words and plots and characters comf...
HANYA YANAGIHARA
Sometimes he wakes so far from himself that he can’t even remember who he is. “Where am I?” he...
HANYA YANAGIHARA
Why wasn’t friendship as good as a relationship? Why wasn’t it even better? It was two people wh...
HANYA YANAGIHARA
One of the fun things about unreliable narrators is they can be funny. You can admire things about t...
HANYA YANAGIHARA
I don't think that genius goes hand in hand with being socially inept or being a sociopath or be...
HANYA YANAGIHARA
From 1999 through 2001, I was an editor at a now-defunct magazine about the media industry called &#...
HANYA YANAGIHARA
Friendship was witnessing another’s slow drip of miseries, and long bouts of boredom, and occasion...
HANYA YANAGIHARA
Every traveler knows too well the endless quest for the perfect travel bag: the one that's styli...
HANYA YANAGIHARA
I wanted to see how flavors, spices, and grains traveled back and forth along the Silk Road and were...
HANYA YANAGIHARA
Of course, no one has enough time to see every shop that Mumbai has: That would take more lifetimes ...
HANYA YANAGIHARA
Jaipur, like Florence or Kyoto, other artisan-rich cities to which it roughly compares, has always b...
HANYA YANAGIHARA
When we think of India, most of us are in fact thinking of Rajasthan, that large splotch of dun-colo...
HANYA YANAGIHARA
I love how Vietnamese cuisine always tastes like flowers, and how they had the ingenious idea of pai...
HANYA YANAGIHARA
Writing is, by its nature, interior work. So being forced to be around people is a great gift for a ...
HANYA YANAGIHARA
Any frequent visitor to Hawaii is fixated on mapping how the islands have changed since their last v...
HANYA YANAGIHARA
Sometimes, of course, there's no quick way to make it through immigration: Different airports ha...
HANYA YANAGIHARA
Oh god, I thought, can nothing in this jungle behave as it ought? Must fruits move and trees breathe...
HANYA YANAGIHARA
It had always seemed to him a very plush kind of problem, a privilege, really, to consider whether l...
HANYA YANAGIHARA
The previous Friday, Andy had come over, and they'd told him, and Andy had stood and hugged them bot...
HANYA YANAGIHARA
I go to Japan every November on vacation, and the one thing I never return home without is yuba, whi...
HANYA YANAGIHARA
The speed limit on most of Maui's highways is forty miles per hour, but my mother never went abo...
HANYA YANAGIHARA
Wasn’t friendship its own miracle, the finding of another person who made the entire lonely world ...
HANYA YANAGIHARA
This isn't fair, he would think in those moments. This isn't friendship. It's something, but it's no...
HANYA YANAGIHARA
Relationships never provide you with everything. They provide you with some things. You take all you...
HANYA YANAGIHARA
I think that all research scientists think of themselves as belonging to a grand tradition, building...
HANYA YANAGIHARA
You see a virus very differently when it's caught and suspended on a slab of glass than when you...
HANYA YANAGIHARA
There is something uniquely American about the motel: It speaks to the transient nature of America i...
HANYA YANAGIHARA
In Mumbai, the air is saltier. The sea is roilier. The traffic is snarlier. The pinks are pinker. Th...
HANYA YANAGIHARA
One of the things I'm fascinated by as a traveler is watching how different countries control ho...
HANYA YANAGIHARA
Florence is perhaps best known for being the seat of Renaissance art, and rightly so: A greatest-hit...
HANYA YANAGIHARA
People who don't like math always accuse mathematicians of trying to make math complicated. (...) Bu...
HANYA YANAGIHARA
....or drive up to his parents' house, one of you plugging into the car's stereo an outlandish playl...
HANYA YANAGIHARA
...things get broken, and sometimes they get repaired, and in most cases, you realize that no matter...
HANYA YANAGIHARA
Harold sighs. “Jude,” he says, “there’s not an expiration date on needing help, or needing p...
HANYA YANAGIHARA
But it was true that for the first time, he was able to comprehend that the people he had gro...
HANYA YANAGIHARA
Fairness is for happy people, for people who have been lucky enough to have lived a life defined mor...
HANYA YANAGIHARA
Those of us lucky enough to fall in love with Asia know that it's an affair that's as long a...
HANYA YANAGIHARA
One of the writers I most admire is Hilary Mantel because in the middle of her career, she just chan...
HANYA YANAGIHARA
I know my life's meaningful because"- and here he stopped, and looked shy, and was silent for a mome...
HANYA YANAGIHARA
But now, he was conscious of his own impatience with what he had begun to see as the sinister pedant...
HANYA YANAGIHARA
It was impossible to convince someone to live for his own sake. But he often thought it would be a m...
HANYA YANAGIHARA
Willem had tried to approach the subject through various directions—through stories of friends and...
HANYA YANAGIHARA
I wrote my second novel, 'A Little Life,' in what I still think of as a fever dream: For 18 ...
HANYA YANAGIHARA
I think there are patterns of the aftermath of colonization that you see echoed in cultures and comm...
HANYA YANAGIHARA
I've always thought that one of the least successful encounters is meeting a writer one admires....
HANYA YANAGIHARA
The term 'pashmina' is often used interchangeably with 'cashmere,' but in reality, p...
HANYA YANAGIHARA
Between their rise in the thirteenth century and their sudden fall in the seventeenth, when the line...
HANYA YANAGIHARA
Misanthropy is born, I think, out of an almost oppressive sense of loneliness, a conviction that the...
HANYA YANAGIHARA
Once you join the queue for the immigration line, pay attention to what the expeditor tells you. Hav...
HANYA YANAGIHARA
My phone rang, and although it wasn't a sinister time of night, and although nothing had happened th...
HANYA YANAGIHARA
I was aware that I had been looking for him on every street, in every crowd.
HANYA YANAGIHARA
When you have very lax parents, you tend to get more conservative kids.
HANYA YANAGIHARA
He has just come home, so exhausted that he feels soluble, as if he is evaporating into the air, so ...
HANYA YANAGIHARA
He joined Jude in the kitchen and began making a salad, and JB slumped to the dining-room table and ...
HANYA YANAGIHARA
The beauty of a Moroccan riad is undeniable, but even the most die-hard fan may find herself growing...
HANYA YANAGIHARA
You won’t understand what I mean now, but someday you will: the only trick of friendship, I think,...
HANYA YANAGIHARA
Everyone thought they would be friends for decades, forever. But for most people, of course, that ha...
HANYA YANAGIHARA
Even before it opened its retail arm, Beigh was renowned among pashmina cognoscenti for the quality ...
HANYA YANAGIHARA
He doesn't know this now, but in the years to come he will, again and again, test Harold's claims of...
HANYA YANAGIHARA
I wanted to write a story about colonization and about Hawaii. I went to college right at the height...
HANYA YANAGIHARA
What he knew, he knew from books, and books lied, they made things prettier.
HANYA YANAGIHARA
I was born in L.A., then we moved to Hawaii, then we moved to New York, then we moved to Baltimore, ...
HANYA YANAGIHARA
Unlike Milan, Italy's banking capital, or Rome, its religious center, Florence was the place whe...
HANYA YANAGIHARA